Monday, October 28, 2013

মিথ্যে ইচ্ছে

এসেছিল সে চুপি চুপি
হেসেছিল আড়াল করে মুখখানি

খুঁজেছিলাম সেই হাসির মানে,
একা নির্যনায়
বুঝেছিলাম আমি
হয়ত সেই হাসি
আমার তরে নয়।

হয়ত ভুল আমারি,
ভুলেই বসবাস...
তবুও আশায় আমি..
পেয়ে যাব তোমায় ভুল পথে
আমার বিশ্বাস।

হয়তবা তোমার চেনা পথে দাঁড়িয়ে দাঁড়িয়ে

কোনো একদিন আমি যাবই হারিয়ে...

জানি তুমি দেখবে না
পিছন ফিরে,

জানি তুমি ডাকবে না,
দুহাত বাড়িয়ে....

তবু মিথ্যে ইচ্ছে আমার
একবার, শুধু একটি বার
দাও হাতটি বাড়িয়ে.......

Thursday, October 17, 2013

orientation...

29 june 2013, amar waiting ar 847th day te commerce clz a Sabrina Alam der orientation hoy. Ami quite prepared e silam propose korar jonno. 847 days ar jonno 847 ta roses kinbo.

1 din aage Shadullapur gelam flower kinte.  Porer din Vore ashte bollo. Bikrir rose shesh hoye gese. :[

Thn decide korlam 29 june na 2 july or 1st class a propose korbo. 850 days a....

Rose 3 ta barlo. :]

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Eid Mubarak

Accept my deep heart prayers for you successful life on this day of Eid. Wish you a Happy Eid.

Monday, October 14, 2013

Secretarial science

Keno jeno odin bashay giyesilam. Reason ta thik mone naai. Aunty bollo, "Sabrina admission ar jonno line a ase. 4th sub Secretarial science ney naai. Cz Secretarial science ar fees 300-3000 korse. Amr mathay dhuktesilo na. Kivabe ata possible 2 years ar moddhe 10 times bere jabe!!!!

Then bashay ashlammoha-pondit Golden Sami re peye ask korlam. Reason ki???

Ponditer uttor silo, sha sir ar shathe kotha bolse aita printing mistake.

Amio kalokkhepon na kore, shorolo mone aunty ke phn dilam and sob khulia bolilam. otopor Aunty Sadiake pathailo clz a. Abong tahara fluid diya goshia majiaa Secretarial science e nilo.

Kintu pore jana gelo oita printing mistake silo naa.


Ami to ponditer kotha shunia porima moha bipode. Aunty ar kase mukh dekhanoi vaar. Ki koribo taha vabite vabitei koyek khana chul pakiaa gesilo, shei bepare kono sondeho naai.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Clz admission....

Ami mon theke chaitam. O commerce clz ai vorti hok. jani na shesh porjonto kivabe jeno commerce clz ai vorti holo. News ta janar por happy hoisilam. Amar x school a porse. Now amar X clz a porbe.... ^_^

Saturday, October 12, 2013

An evening

An evening, muri with pori or u can say pori with muri.

Protidiner moto muri khete ber hoye dekhi. Az sha ber hoise. Shathe sadia and or akta cousin silo. Sha mukh lukalo :p ^_^

Voyonkar shopno ta dekhar por, dekha hoye aktu relax e lagtese.... :] 

worse dream ever....

aaz 10-12-2013, vor belay akta voyonkor dream dekhe ghum venge jay.

Dekhi, meem phone dise. Goto kal Friday silo. Friday te naki, Meem, Sadia and Sabrinar ak shathe biye hoise. Ami kono kotha na bole phn ta kete dei. Vabsi o fun kortese. Aita kivabe possible??

Phone kete Arafat ke phn dei. O bole ghotona shotti. Hut korei sob hoye gelo. :[

Thn 3 joner shathe dekha kori. Meem ke jhari iccha moton, "Tumi amake akta phn diba na?? ami aunt ar shamne giya daratam. Sob khule boltam. Tumi ken amake phn dila na???"

Sadiake boli, "good wishes for ur new life"

and lastly Sabke iccha moto kotha shunai. kotha guli silo amn, "তুমি জানো 2 টা year তোমাকে নিয়ে আমি কি কি করসি?? কত পাগলামি করসি তুমি দেখতে চাও??? এই ব্লগ টা দেখো, মীম কে ask কর। আমার ফেইসবুক ফ্রেন্ড দের ask কর। 2টা year শুধু তোমার জন্য wait করসি।

হে বলতে পারো বলি নাই। জুলাই এর ২ তারিখের কথা মনে আসে?? তোমার 1st class ছিল কলেজ এ। এক সাথে lunch করসিলাম। ওদিন বলার জন্যই গেসিলাম। মীম মানা  করছিল। তুমি জীবনেও হ্যাপি হবা না, জীবনেও না।"


Amon dream ken dekhlam ke jane.. Feeling lot of voy. Love kori to, taai. :[

Thursday, October 10, 2013

exam paper review

Result publish howar por theke communication onek bere jay amar. Result ar din e aunt onek bar phn dey amake bivinno info janar jonno. Cz she is sure exam paper marking a ulta palta hoise. Board ar lok ar shathe kotha bolbe and review system ta ki etc.


Wednesday, October 9, 2013

planning

Then shuru hoy planing and planing. Honestly speaking koto je planing korsi, koto plan je change korsi GOD knows. Close jei koyta frnd ase sobar shathe discuss korsi, ki kora jay. Sobai jar jar moto advise dicche...

Like Monowar bolsilo kono restrudent a deke hatu gere propose korte lol. Filmy style.
Shovon bolse, White panjabi + red roses diya prpose korte. [Thn ami Arong thika panjabio kinsilam lol]

Kono advise e amr valo lagtesilo na. I wanted to make it more special. Ami decide korlam Joto days hobe propose ar totota golap dibo. Shathe akta card.

Then start hoy days niye jhamela. Kon din? 1st a vabsilam, result ar din. But ateo prob. Result kmn hobe aita akta boro fact. Result jodi valo hoy tahole to valoi. But jodi ashanorup na hoy then??

Aisob chinta kore aunt ke phn dei and Sabrinar board roll nei. It was - 545436. And board ar ak lok ke diye aager din result ber kori. Jodio Sabrina roll dite chacchilo na. Jodi kharap hoy. O onek tension a silo. Jai hok roll al last paai. And unfortunately o A+ miss kore. 4.75 paay. Or mark sheet ta peye amie shocked hoi. Onekguli subject a aktur jonno A+ miss hoye A ashche. Ami ar bashay odin janai na iccha kore. Porer din 12 tar pore phone dei. Sadia phone pick kore. Bole result paise 4.75. but mark sheet pay nai still. Then ami bollam Math, Religious, Business Entrepreneurship and Bangla-Englsih a A ashche....


Then ar ki!!! Result ar din propose kora cancel and planing a daily kisu na kisu add hocche.....

Monday, October 7, 2013

dot dot dot . . .

Protidin jei kaz ta kore ashchi... ta hotat off hoye jaoaay normally kharap laga shuru hoy. Diner por din jay. Tar dekha pai na... ami mentally weak hote thaki. Kisu valo lage na. Frnd der shathe discuss kori. Sobai suggest kore okay bole felte. But how?? O na use kore mobile na use kore FB. Ta chara or shathe ami free o na. Hut kore bolle valo vabe nibe na.

But na boleo ba ki? Ami bolbo na dekhe onno keu to boshe thakbe na. Ar ai age a affair a jaoa ta sob meyeder jonnoi shavabik. Ai sob tension a decision nei propose korboi, Ja hobar hobe.

একটা গোপন কথা ছিল বলবার
বন্ধু সময় হবে কি তোমার
একবার শুনে ভুলে যেও বারবার
ভুলেও কাউকে বলোনা আবার
মুখে ভালোবাসি না বলে
মনেতে প্রেম নিয়ে চলে আজ অনেকেই
এতদিন ছিল সাধারন তার মাঝে একজন
যাকে আজ বড় আলাদা লাগে
মন আঁধারের নীলিমায়
তোমাকেই আজ খুঁজতে চায়
জানি না জানি না কোথায় পাবো তোমায়
একবার এসে দেখো আমায়
ভেবেছি তা এবার যা হবে হবার
হোক তবু করে স্বীকার
পরাজয় মেনে নিয়ে সবটুকু ভুলে গিয়ে
চাইবো আমার অধিকার
কপালে যা আছে লেখা মনে যদি পাইও ব্যাথা
দেখে নিব আমি এর শেষ
মিথ্যে অভিনয় আর নয় আর নয়
এই ভালো আছি এই বেস
মন আঁধারের নীলিমায়
তোমাকেই আজ খুঁজতে চায়
জানি না জানি না কোথায় পাবো তোমায়
একবার এসে দেখো আমায়

Sunday, October 6, 2013

amabosshar chaad........

Amabasshar-chaad bolle khub akta vul hobe na. Exam shesh howar por theke sha ai cousin ar basha, oi cousin ar basha puro dome berano start kore. Hoy Mohammadpur or lalmatiya. Arafat ke ask korlei bole, ora to fupur bashay or khalar bashay.


Adike na dekhte pere amr obostha kharap. Ki kortese, koi ase?? Keu jodi propose kore boshe!!! Cousin der moddhe jodi keu villein hoye jay. Nana Q. mathay ghurpak khete thake. Sob cousin dear shomporke actual idea no. Boro der moddhe 2 jon ase, married. Ar baki guli baccha-kaccha. So apatodo tension thika bachi..........  lol



Rab ki qawali hai Ishq koi
Dil ki Diwali hai Ishq koi
Mehki si pyaali hai Ishq koi
Subah ki laali hai Ishq....
Girta sa jharna hai Ishq koi
Uthta sa kalma hai Ishq koi
Saanson mein lipta hai ishq koi
Aankhon mein dikhta hai Ishq

Mere dil ko tu jaan se juda kar de
Yun bas tu mujhko fanaa kar de
Mera haal tu, meri chaal tu
Bas kar aashiqana

Tere waaste mera Ishq Sufiyana
Mera Ishq Sufiyana

Friday, October 4, 2013

Opekkhaaa

Dirgho 1 months dhore oder xam chole. Xam shuru howar por theke okay dekha hoy na. Adike ami amar business ke expend korar jonno akta office neoaar plan kori. Sob motamoti final o hoye giyesilo.

Sabrinar exam shesh hole, oro join korar kotha silo. Sob valo vebei agacchilo. But amr partner amr shathe beat tray korlo last moment a. Amn akta baze situation a pore jai, ki ar bolbo. Adike Aunt ke boro golay bolsi, office ar kotha, sadia sabrinar job ar kotha. Thn onek vebe bashay e office run kori. Meem ar notebook ar amr desktop diye.

But Sadia onlt 2 din eshe tired hoye jay. Haatr bethar jonno ashte pare na. Thn Aunty ke boli Sabrinake at least pathate. But sha shorom paay. Are baap ami to tomake propose kori nai still. Ato shoromer ki ase!!!!

Jai hok. Office ar hoy na. Amr onk financial loss hoy. Sabrinao berano start kore xam shesh a. Amabosshar chad bolte ja bojhay, tai arki. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Her SSC Exam Starts.....

Watch peye sha naki amake thanks janaise, Arafat bollo. Amio reply a bollam A+ kintu pete hobe. Sha try korbe bollo...

03-02-2013 Sunday theke tar exam start holo. Ami Arafater shathe 02-02-2013 te seat dekhe ashlam. Arafat e bolsilo, "seat dekhte jabi??" Ami ar naa kori nai. Na korbo ki?? Mone mone to khushie hoisila. Lolzz


Friday, July 12, 2013

hotaat ak din...

Ami okay regular observe kori. But kokhono oka bujhte dei nai. Or model test choltesilo January 2013 te. Tokhn akdin kheaal kori or school ar shoe ar obostha onek kharap. Shoe ar choul ak bare khulei gese. Jinishta amr khub kharap laage.

Nana kolpona start hoi. Main exam shamne. Ar to koyekta din. Tai mone hoi ar shoe kinbe na. Ata porei chalai dibe. But aita kmn dekha jai. Life a 1st public exam at shoe pore dibe. Ki kora jai, ki kora jai. Ami to kisu bolteo pari na. Abar shoe kina dileo kmn dekha jai. 1 bar to vablam Exam a ja ja laage like calculator, pen, pencil, wrist watch and shoe kine beoaarish name bashai pathabo.

Pore abar decision chage korsi. Cz ai time a ami jodi ai paglami ta kori thn o family te color hobe. Ja ami kono din e chai na. Or exam ta kharap hobe. ja ami mene nite parbo na.

Or Birth day 29 January. Dekhte dekhte date ta chole ashe. Akdom heror moto decision nilam ja hobar hobe. Ami shoe e kina dibo. Or vaai ke. Diya bolbo shamne exam, ami dekhlam or shoe ar obostha kharap. Aita or dorkar, ami exam ar jonno gift korlam.

Jei vaba shei kaz, but Arafat 29 tarikh free silo na, February ar 1 tarikh Friday silo. Odin or off day silo.
Bas sondhai ber holam dujon. Chatpoti khelam. Onek sahosh niya bolei fellam, "Or to exam shuru hocche kisu deoaa uchit. Ki deoaa jai?"

Arafat : ami ki jani?"
Ami : Statdium ar opposite side ar shoe ar market a chol.
Arafat: okay.
Ami : [pouchiye] bashai phn diye or payer maap ta ne.
Arafat: what??

Ami: hmm. Ja bolsi kor. Ami dekhsi or shoe ar condition valo na.
Arafat: Shoe kinse, kaporer.
Ami: ops... :P :P

Thn bollam 1no chol thn.

1 no. giye sob guli dokan ghure 1 ta watch kinlam. Jani na akhono valo ase kina. But ghori tay amr valobasha ase.

Sha naki like korse. Even hateo dise. Ar che boro paoaar kisu nei amar kase. O naki recently meem k bolse vaiaa ghorita dise and ghorita naki nice ^_^.

Tarahura kore watch tar akta pic rakhte parlam na. :[

Monday, July 8, 2013

Otopor...

Ammar positive response peye ami onnek happy hoi. And decide kori valo vabe study korte hobe, and pasha pashi earning ar bebosthao korte hobe. Online a kaz kore manush shuntam. Tokhn theke aro valo vabe khoz neoaa shuru kori.

Onek manusher haate paye dhore, onek chorai utraai periye income ar valo akta way kore feli.
But problem hocche or shathe dekha korar tmn kono scope nei. Cz sha Facebook chalai na, mobile use kore na. Ki kori, ki kori, thn mathay akta planning alo, abbur dokaner shamne diye o daily class a jai. Dokane jodi timely thaka jaay thn dekha hobe.

Jei vaba shei kaz, amr ja income silo sob dhele dokaner decoration change kori. And dokane bosha start kori. Dekhao pete shuru kori regular.

Amn o din ache ami vor 6 taay ghumaisi study and kaz shesh kore. But 9.20 a ghum venge gese. Brush na korei ami giye dariye achi kokhn sha jabe. 10 taai xam 9.30 to 9.40 a jabe adik diye..... sha jeto, ak polok dekhtam, but bujhte ditaam na ami tar jonno wait korsi.

Thn bashai ashle amma bolto, "ki duty dia ashlen??" =]]

Ak baar to pichon pichon school porjonto chole gesilam. O may be dekhsilo odin. Ami amr student Saif ar shathe kotha bolte bolte jaai. Thn shower neoaar somoi kheaal kori kivabe jeno amr baam hat ta kete gese. Joltese. Pore bujhlam tara hura kore jaowar somoi rickshar hud atkanor angel ar shathe lege kaatse. Akhono daag ta ase. Ami dekhi and hashi.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Mom convinced

Akta somoi nana vonita korte korte mom k bolei feli. Um in love with her and I really need her. Shedin e amma oder bashai jai. And oke dekhe ashe. But o naki aktu lozza passilo. Ammar shamnei ashchilo na.

Jai hok mom bashai fire bollo, "amr cheler choice ase. Ai meyekei bou banabo. Taratari porashuna start kor. and earning kora start kor. ai meye miss kora jabe na. blabla bla bla"

Thn theke amr theke mom onek beshi serious or bepare. Prai protidin e or bepare ammar shathe kotha hoi. Jodi amma ok kothao dekhe amk bole. Aj to dekhlam. Abar amio boli, amio to dekhlam. Ma chele onk fun kori beparta niye.

Akhn amn akta obostha bashar picchitao jane. O bole ajke to vabi ke dekhlam. Lol

Monday, January 28, 2013

29-01-2013

HAPPY BIRTH DAY TO YOU,,,
                        HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR
                                                 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.


Thursday, January 3, 2013

Family...

Ami decide kori bashai janabo. mane amr maa ke. But was confused kivabe boli. Ami nana vabe ammake bujhanor cheshta kori,

For example 1.
me : amma!! Chul to paika jacche.
mom: to??
me: Keu meye dibo nato.
mom: na dile naai. :[[


example 2.
me: Amma!!
mom: Ki???
me: Shorner daam onk baira jaitase.
mom: ki kormu??
me: akhn e bia korai deo. Kom khoroch ai hoye jabe.
mom: 10 bori golds chara Bou anmu na...............
me: :[[ :[[ :[[ :[[ :[[ :[[ :[[ :[[
[a ki amr ma??? naki amr bouer??? Akhn e bouer safai gaoa start korse]


example 3.
me: Decide kore felsi.
mom: ki???
me: Cumilla, Noakhali, Barishal and Faridpur ar meye biye korbo na.
mom: Good.


 example 4.
me: Ammu.
mom: ki??
me: Amn akta mey chai.
mom: Kemon??
me: Faltu Hindi serial dekhbo na.
mom: Thn??
me: Ajaira phn a kotha bolbo na. Even amr shatheo na.
mom :Thn??
me: aaaaar FB a acc nai. Amn akta meye chai.

mom: Taile tor kopale meyeo nai. :[[

Going on....

Avabei cholte thake amar din. Sob somoi ami Sabrinar pichone chaya hoye lege achi. proti ta muhurtu shudhu amr vabna jure Shudhu akjon. aar sha hocche Sabrina and Sabrina.


4 Seconds, 5 Seconds

Then Start hoi amr opekkhar pala.
Daily 4-5 seconds dekhar jonno ami, koto calculation kori.
Kokhn School a jabe, Kokhn chuti hobe..... and so.....

And jedin dekha peye jai.......... feeling like um in heaven and um flying on high.....